BIRD SPOTTING: OWL (Tawny/Brown?) R I P

The Walk: The wind blows in a carcass- I carry it home. Sad. It's weight gives me arm ache.  

VIVIAN MAIER:100,000 Negatives.

Interesting double page spread in yesterdays Observer about a Chicago-based nanny Vivian Maier who died in 2009 she left behind 100,000 negatives that no one had ever seen. There's a blog site: http://www.vivianmaier.blogspot.com/   ‎..as the Observer piece says the work reminds you of Diane Arbus-but these were shot before Arbus.........the bloke who discovered them bid $400.00 for a box of old negatives at an auction...................

Time wasting: WEB SITE-normal service is resumed:

Avoiding work pretending to be busy  post Festive/ anniversary hangover must diet - a whisky diet - to para-phrase the late great Tommy Cooper 'I've lost three days already'......three days I've lost over a week, there's a Playboy Magazine job been burning  away in the in tray of my numbskull since new years day, the deadline is at the end of the month, but after saying yes to the man having finally read the piece this week another excuse for whisky I have the feeling that I am probably second maybe third maybe fifth choice for the work it is gnawing away at me I feel sick. Leave it to the last minute wait til the deadline is burning and drilling away up your anus  I advise students on my occasional outings to art schools of England and next month Poland before the pen scratches and scores the paper. My Mac Man Jason fitted my computer with an external hard drive on Wednesday morning then I mentioned that my moribund web site hasn't been updated in over four years could he have a butchers and three weeks later between us we actually achieved the impossible and actually put something new on there hurrah! And I was able to delete some of the shit. Hurrah! So I have spent best part of yesterday and evening posting fresh images on the web site all the while kidding myself I am really working on The Playboy Magazine job. Times have changed in the past a Playboy secretary would phone and tell me to hold the line and that she had Playboy Vice President Tom Staebler wanting to speak to me............I could imagine the art director surrounded by a phalanx (is that the word?)of fluffy bunnies and quaffing vintage Dom Perignon now it's just an email. It is a Will Self piece of writing I am to decorate. Anyway what's the point now that the web site is operating -normal service has been resumed. I only started the blog as a substitute for the web site.....but is a bit of a confessional answers please dear reader let me know your thoughts no one leaves a bloody comment on here anyway I've wasted an hour of my life why can't you................and now trying to find samples of illustration to put on there I've forgotten so many past jobs I came across this character putting on a tie I have no idea who the job was for apart from I remember it was an American magazine so if anyone has an idea please let me know highly unlikely I know but it might start a dialogue.  

Last New Yorker 2010:

Mari Wilson-Shoreham By Sea

Half-Time Walked out. Went for a pint. Cry Me A River...

Beehive as tall as my face: 1982

Today I've chain-sawed large lumps of tree - before splitting the logs with an axe. It was dusk before I stacked the logs in the wood shed in an arrangement that satisfied my soul. Sad.

Tomorrow we travel to Shoreham By Sea in Sussex. On Saturday Mari Wilson performs at the Shoreham By Sea Art Centre. In 1982 the girl was retro, I fell for the tongue in cheek image, the fake glam, the joke. She reminded me of a girl I once knew, an older girl from my juvenile past.  I dug out the records yesterday and was sadly unimpressed. It was the image. I've got her autograph somewhere. Cry Me A River is better performed by Julie London  

Lee Ford asks for my working drawing practice statement............

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WORKING DRAWINGS: SHEFFIELD INSTITUTE OF ARTS GALLERY DEC 4 - DEC 23

The exhibition features drawings by Abram Games, Alan Fletcher, Milton Glazer and Saul Steinberg not bad company to be keeping.

I don't really have a typical working drawing practice it's a cocktail of desperation, panic and discipline depending on the subject, the right nib the thickness of the ink the sharpness of the pencil the size the texture of the drawing surface. Sometimes - I wake at 6am. Shower and get dressed. Make a cup of tea. I read the brief. If there is a brief. I go for a walk maybe. I make a cup of coffee. Prepare some  toast and honey and banana. I read The Guardian. I look out of the window. I check for emails. I sit in front of the computer. I throw some darts. I watch the last quarter of  hour of Bargain Hunt. I have lunch. I shoot some rabbits. I pluck and gut a pheasant. But today I have been in Cambridge giving students the benefit of my experience, I should listen to my own advice. Re-visit childhood and play. Make a mess.

Eyes down looking......... any line - blank sheet of paper  if it's an ink drawing I dip my nib into the bottle of black ink, if it is a pencil drawing I sharpen my 2B pencil with a scalpel I start with the eye if it's a portrait, and it might turn into a cat if it's not a portrait of Colonel Gaddafi.  I fly by the seat of my pants.

Othello was a large blank sheet of paper, my brain was blank. I had never seen the play had never read it. Watched an old video, a blacked up Laurence Olivier and a stagey Desdemona impersonated by an actress too old for the part. I drew in ink a small rectangular box and I sort of doodled a stage. I wrote the word Othello, that settled me down, I had begun. Alongside the first box I drew a second box and I repeated the act of doodling a stage and added a kind of boxing ring to it. I then typed the name Othello as it is a play and I glued the type-written Othello to the doodle. I drew the next identically shaped box alongside, doodled the same stage and filled it in with black tissue paper,'it's a dark play'. I realise as I am trying to describe this form of alchemy that I add droplets of humour into the mix, is this an attempt to jolt me into life, is it a ploy to avoid being considered prententious? Bit of both maybe...........I feel it is a mistake to analyse my work it's like giving secrets away, I will lose it,I've summoned up a curse, the talent to draw without a safety net is a curse anyway.  I'm blessed.

So I continue and I discover before the play begins within some early dialogue that Othello and Desdemona have been married in secret,something to dip my nib into, a simple wedding portrait. And on it goes across the top of the sheet. A line of separate simple drawings a storyboard evolves. Improvisation. I make it up as I go reading the text and reacting. A tennis match with the Bard of Avon. Inspired by Shakespeare. New balls please. The challenge of using the remaining space across the sheet of cream paper as I fill it in with my line adds to the pressure, but by now a kind of a adrenaline is flowing through me pumping around my furred-up veins from my pea- brain through the network of an anatomical chart down my arm into the inkwell and  spilling it's guts and turning a sheet of paper into a drawing that could be worth something. I make a living. 11 sheets and six months later and with painted portraits and added improvisations Othello kicks me into touch. On completion the printer then makes the request to cut up the sheets of paper in two with a surgeons precision - to fit the art onto their scanner, it is 1997. But it is the storyboard that ignites the project.

Walking the Dog. Drawing from memory ancient and modern:

Improvisation a memory snapping the pencils as I draw from the depths of the bowels of a deranged sentimental disillusioned illustrator.  I bought a cheap 10 inch square shaped sketch book. On the first page I lettered the title, the title was 'How To Be A Cartoonist'.The publisher told me to block it in, I had shown him a manuscript. I blocked it in page by page it was about 40 pages in before I reached the point of the beginning the original manuscript. It was a 40 page run up. I drew as I walked I drew as I went. I would tell myself at 8am I'll do a couple of hours before I start work. I would sometimes start at the top left hand corner and draw a little man in a hat, I would add a wire-hared fox terrier,Dexter. And take them for a walk. Drawing exercise. Like scales.Practice makes perfect. I made a cover for the sketchbook I papered it over with an image of a contact sheet of a carcass of a sheep trapped and contorted in wire fencing with the doodles of the man walking his dog, like red indians circling a stagecoach. It became book. Then it would be 2 in the afternoon, and I might've completed a double page of the walking man and his dog walking back and forth crossing the gutter summoning up the ghosts of his past through drawing.  And then if it was a Tuesday. at about 10 am a draft of Marcel Berlin's Guardian piece would land in the in tray, never straight forward, challenging current affairs serious and trivial. The Guardian's deadline was usually about tea time five-ish the same day. It was not unusual for the dog to keep me on the leash of a 2b pencil until 3. Dan Franklin the publisher had ideally wanted a 120 page 'graphic novel' he got a 300 plus page notebook on drawing. The artist recovered.

Walking the Dog was a compulsive pencil confessional a revealing one dimensional segment of the artist. The power of drawing. The police should use the technique as an investigative aid, an eye witness prompt.